the musaks

riiiiight ok so the update hasn't quite yet happened has it? lol oops, i was all set to do it Saturday morning, and i kinda ended up at two different parties through the night and not getting home till around 10am in the morning Saturday, as i seem to keep up doing when i end up on random nights.

Met some more random lovely people though that hopefully i will see again, and ah oh dear i think i might have got onto interweb and facebooked people whilst wasted......think i better check that one out :s lol

so it took me this long to recover (it is now Sunday evening) enough to get some motivation up to do anything, doing the sport relief three mile this morning as well didn't help, i got back to my friend Ellie's afterwards and fell asleep on her sofa, so i really must make the most of this motivation that has finally occurred and work on my essay.

so instead of a full update i am going to share some music with you that has been making me happy, and hopefully it will bring some sparkle into your life too!

first off, the silver sun pick ups, my mate Simon posted one of their videos on their blog, and also called me up just to rave about them too - and he's right I'm utterly hooked on this song of theirs, cant wait till i get to his next weekend and can hear their album:

Lazy Eye



also, forgive me if i have gone on about these a bit to you already, Hot Chip, songs of happy sillyness that always having me skipping and singing down the street (and who cant help but love geeks going nuts :D)

Over and Over


Ready for the Floor



Colours


let me know what you think of them

right must get on with this essay! over and out for now :D

Despair for humanity -we really have no hope

ok so i just found this brief post on the BBC (click here), how, and i really mean this, how does this sort of situation occur? let alone happen for so long?! and how could the husband not even think that this situation wasn't worth worrying about before two years had past?! my brain is actually breaking trying to work this out. and how did she sleep? argh its going to mess with my head all day now :(

lack of posting

right it's been ages since i've posted anything, i just came to this realisation whilst sat at my desk at work - which means right now there isnt an awful lot i can do about it! damn

have lots to write about as well, which is probably the reason i havent posted - i simply havent had the time, but i will be working on an essay tonight so i am bound to be wanting distractions - so will post you an update within the next day or so

if i dont, feel free to nag

right must get back to work!

My life today

Is it cowardly of me to just want it to stop hurting already? I thought i was doing ok and then it hit me, thankfully I have an office now so crying at my computer isnt so conspicuous anymore.

Its the feeling of humiliation that gets me the most, that i could care so much about someone who didnt care about me in the same way and not realise.

Ban the cuppa?!

Ok this article proves that the world has officially gone made as far as I'm concerned!!

1648 or 2008?

Sometimes the world is a very scary place and I become convinced that all the progress and development in our society has been for nothing if people can still be convinced that someone is a witch as with this story. It makes me so angry, and so sad for the poor woman whose only crime was to probably manage to upset or become a target of someone with more power than herself

And what is it with trying to put our values and morals on to the actions and behaviour of animals?!!! this article is brilliant - a teeneage welfare mom with a difference! read the comments as well, they're really quite funny

A week of extremes

hahaha max i have bad news for you hun, i have a new job starting at the end of this last one - i will be a professional map geek for a further 12 months :p

i am quite excited by the possibilities of this job. I will be working and learning loads more about database and data mining, hard work but it should be a great experience aaaaaaaand i will be coming to America for a field trip, so i think i shall be coming out a week or so earlier so that i can come and visit the flock :D too good an opportunity to miss ;)

but it has also been abit of a rubbish week, things with the blonde haired boy have finally gone completely pair shaped and it hurts a lot. If i am going to be fair it probably had been for a while and i hadnt realised just how bad. Although as my friend Simon pointed out it will probably be better for me, for all he cared he was so busy focusing on his own happiness and the status quo for himself he had no time for me or to help me. And he always put so much pressure on me (unknowlingly) for nothing to go wrong that they always did.

So a week of highs and lows

luckily with my current job i can work from home, and cos on top of this I have flu as well i have taken a day home working and am not getting out of my dressing gown for love nor money. It also means i dont have to suffer my random bursts into tears happening in public at work. Although the bad side is, as i'm not getting out of the dressing gown i cant really go down to the shop for chocolate - damn didnt think this one through

and hopefully max is going to come up trumps with the Boom idea, cos I definitely dont have anyone else to go with now this has all gone wrong with the boy, and i really really want to go!!!

oh and finally cheers flynn for my card, i like it a lot :)

and many thanks to Simon and Maddies to making me laugh last night just when i needed it!

anyway i suppose i ought to actually do some work really!